Another Interview

Another interview with me. This one's a bit darker...this was in Davidroz Daily.

(1) What was the most surprisingly accurate observation somebody has made about you?
My psychologist from my college era said after just two sessions that he could tell I was truly a closet perfectionist. And it's true that I believe that if anything I’m working on cannot be perfect fairly quickly, I don’t want anything to do with it.

All the people I met during Assassins have helped me a long way in changing my opinion on this, 'cuz God knows that show wasn't perfect but so well worth it that it changed my life.

(2) What was the most surprisingly inaccurate observation somebody has made about you?
Quite a few people totally believe that I blithely plow on without any regard whatsoever to how it affects others’ opinions of me. I can see why people might say this. But I know you really cannot do much to control what others think of you - they will think what they think despite your every good intention (Even though you probably didn't mean to, I truly thank you for teaching me this, Geri).

I could - if I chose to - beat myself up about my perception of others' opinions of me every minute of the day if I wanted to. I'd be a bloody pulp, believe me. However, I had to battle with a suicidally low self-esteem in my young life so much that I conscientiously choose to make jokes, be insensitive, and have a thick skin now.

These are facts: Every single person on this earth has things they don’t like about themselves. Every single human being is sensitive to what others think about them. But for some people…me for instance…if they do not come up with some drastic and creative ways of circumventing the negative stuff that will inevitably get thrown at them, they’ll end up totally paralyzed and self-destructive.

Believe me, because I am a closet perfectionist, no one can beat me up as well as me.

And that's the most honest I have ever been in this blog.


(3) What do you worry about most often?
Being able to support myself both monetarily and health-wise.

(4) What traditions have you taken on as an adult that were not acquired from your childhood?
Happy Christmases. The New Year’s stuff David listed.

(5) What do you dream of the most that you don’t realistically expect to ever come true?
I was talking to Marcie about this just this weekend – I don’t dwell on the stuff that doesn’t have SOME chance of coming true. I’d never wish to be the 31st-century Mage/Keeper of the Mystic Golden Dragon Egg or some far-fetched fantasy crap like that.

The closest? I still want to get a Pulitzer. I would say the three silly, unrealistic dreams I have the most fun with are becoming an international rock star, winning an Oscar for screenwriting (so I can vote on all future Oscars), or having a drop-dead killer body.

(6) Name three things you are insecure about.
My body
My writing
My finances

(7) How do you feel about nursing homes - for you personally - should you ever become sick/incapacitated?
Nope – I’d rather just blow my brains out. No bitterness – it’s important to know the limits of what you’ll put up with in this life, ya know what I mean? I would never be capable of putting up with a nursing home – I ain’t that scared of death anyway. Given these two options, I would pull a Hunter S. Thompson.

(8) How do you feel about life support - for you personally - should you ever become deathly ill?
I’ll choose suicide again, thank you.